Ahhhhh I could just scream from how lost I am lately. I love my boyfriend and its like the other half of my heart is being occupied by Chris. I have to be thankful that my bf is very understanding and still with me. Crazy how he puts up with this even though we live together. So I don’t know what to think about when it comes to Chris.

I was all nervous last week that telling him I like him would put a strain on our friendship and yet it hasn’t. We talked for like 4 hours on facebook. He was asking me about my sex life and what was wrong with my current relationship. He even randomly said if you think I am a tough guy well I’m not. He was addressing my liking him. Yet he still has not even hinted at if he has feelings for me or am I just wasting my time.We talked about bowling on sunday and he said maybe.

Saturday night rolls around and I was hoping I would see him when I went clubbing with my girlfriends. I texted him to try and convince his friends to go out since he won’t go without them. The guys do decide to go out, but to a seperate place than me. I was so heartbroken. All night at the club all I could do was think about him and how I missed him.

Sunday he didn’t go bowling because he wanted to study for a final. We ended up talking for a bit in the evening on facebook. Then yesterday he messaged me saying how tired he was of studying. We ended up talking for 2 hours on facebook last night. Seriously we talk alot on facebook. Does this mean he thinks I am a great friend and wants to talk to me or is it something more?