December 2009
25 posts
Ahhhhh I could just scream from how lost I am lately. I love my boyfriend and its like the other half of my heart is being occupied by Chris. I have to be thankful that my bf is very understanding and still with me. Crazy how he puts up with this even though we live together. So I don’t know what to think about when it comes to Chris.
I was all nervous last week that telling him I like him...
Me: i don’t know what he loses by being romantic or showing feelings
Chris
hmmm thats a toughie
is he a alpha male type of fellow
Me:
nope more like of a doormat
Chris:
Pfff dude if you want a tough guy then I can assure you I am very much not that dude lol
Me:
lol im not looking for a tough guy
someone with an opinion or who can make a decision
he barely can do either of those
...
So as me and my boyfriend are in limbo I decided to tell Chris I like him because I am impatient. Since he didn’t show up for Wing Night I ended up texting him my feelings. I deleted most of the texts so my bf wouldn’t see them so this is all from memory.
Me: Well it might cheer you up to know this but I seriously like you.
Chris: Awwwww. that’s sweet. i think your awesome.
...
Me and my boyfriend are on the verge of breaking up. He said we could be roommates. I dunno. Today I’m going to tell Chris I like him and see where it will go. I knew this would get really complicated. I dunno what path I want to choose or if there is even a second path available.
Chris and his girlfriend broke up. Could my chance be coming so quickly. Things are getting complicated real quick.
These lyrics explain my life right now
Boy we’ve had a real good time And i wish you the best On your way, eh eh
I didn’t mean to hurt you I never thought we’d fall Out of place, eh eh
I have something that i love long long But my friends keepa’ tellin’ me That something’s wrong Then i met someone And eh, there’s nothing else i can say
Eh eh, eh eh There’s nothing else i can say Eh eh,...
You Can't Make Them Love You
this is beautifully written
fuckyeahhlove:
He is beautiful, new, unexplored. He has wanted to kiss her ever since they met one week ago and fell prey to helpless chemistry. “Don’t,” she says, moving her hands in a subconscious “yes” pattern along his arm as he rubs his cheek against hers. “You don’t even know my favourite colour.” The wind cuts through her thin jacket, and his chest is so...
Wing Tuesday
So yesterday was my first wing tuesday event at buffalo wild wings. Chris was telling me what time he would get there and I was the first of the bunch to arrive. Mainly because if I left any later than my boyfriend would be able to come and I did not want that. Emily was the second to arrive followed by Chris. I was hoping he would sit next to me but instead he sat next to emily. Once a party...
Ok so this is my girly moment. HE TEXTED ME! lol. Thank god he is back from Hawaii. I need him like a breath of fresh air with all the crap going on in my life.
November 2009
49 posts
I have seriously been depressed all last week. Thanksgiving was ok but I was just a hot mess wanted to be outside in the sun and not really getting a chance too. I am totally fighting with my boyfriend right now who I can’t stand. Today will be day 3 of me not talking to him unless my friends are around. It all started because of his stupid father.
The day after thanksgiving his father...
“No matter how much cats fight, there always seem to be plenty of kittens.”
– ~Abraham Lincoln
I can’t believe how much I am missing Chris. Before him I was really depressed at work because my job is so anti-social and I am just a social butterfly. Then when I met Chris we talk on facebook all day long and that just made the day fly by. Now I am in a depression again with no one to talk to. I tried talking to my boyfriend during work but it was so boring. I realize he never has much...
I can’t believe how bored I am at work without Chris to talk to. Right now I feel so dead and like I’m sad. I wish I drove him to the airport on sunday but my boyfriend wouldn’t let me and of course for good reason.
I miss him. He’s in Hawaii.
Another conversation
Some of the convo got erased but he said that he felt a little bad cause he wanted me to be with everyone to go eat at Wild Buffalo Wings.
Chris
I realized I should invited you, while at the restaurant
12:48pmMe
i have never eaten there before
well i wouldn’t have been able to make it since i was attending a live show, but its the thought that counts
12:54pmChris
next tuesday then
...
So I gave Chris my number. He made an appointment with me to play modern warfare tonight with his friends. I swear I have to be way cooler than his girlfriend.
Yesterday I talked to Chris all day on facebook.
Chris:
go work
12:14pmMe:
you go work
:p
12:16pmChris
pfff im at work
Technically
12:17pmMe:
what do you mean by technically?
12:17pmChris:
I totally whipped my exams ass!
12:17pmMe:
awesome
12:17pmChris:
Well im sitting here at lab but im on facebook
I wish I could wear a muscle shirt for my brain
and the answer is yes I am aware of how gay that...
To wrap on my dealings with Chris. Friday he messaged me via ps3. Today he messaged me first on facebook again. Also he loves telling his friends that I have the Modern Warfare 2 night vision goggles which he thinks is really cool. Today I put something up on his facebook, a comic and he said he put a smile to his face. I think we are definitely becoming close.
Saturday Part 2
So we all meet up at James house and get his car to go to the club we normally go to. I got to sit next to Chris who had his arm almost around my shoulder in friendly way. I was in heaven. We were talking a bit about random stuff and he was making me laugh. We made a side stop at a gas station and my friend Emily went to go use the ATM. She gave me her huge bottle of beer that was half full. I...
Saturday part 1
Saturday was one of the best days I had in a long time. My favorite podcast the totally rad show was having an online meetup on DimDim. I join on and tell them that I am the girl that won the ebay bid to go see them tape their show privately in LA. They were like yes we remember you and that they can’t wait to have me over. Out of all the fans they have I can’t believe that they...
I saw Chris online on facebook. This whole time I have been the first one to message him. When he came on today I just started wishing that he would message me first and he did!
This is how I feel about Chris
I go ooh ooh, you go ah ah L-l-l-la, ah l-l-l-la I can la, la, la, l-la, la I wanna, wanna, wanna get, get, get what I want, don’t stop Give me, give me, give me what you got, got ‘Cause I can’t wait, wait, wait anym-more, more, more Don’t even talk about the consequence ‘Cause right now you’re the only thing That’s making any sense to me And I don’t...
Last night I went to go see 2012. Went with my boyfriend, Emily, Mike, James, Johnny, and…. Chris. I met them at the theater but apparently they were all at applebees earlier. I missed Emily’s call and wished I was there because I didn’t get to spend alot of time with Chris. When he came to the theater he seemed a little pissed off I guess and distant but I think that was because...
So I talked to Chris not too long ago. Thank god for facebook. So I first invited emily to go see 2012 so that way asking Chris wouldn’t look weird. Now we are going in a big group and of course my boyfriend will be there. At least now I have a chance to see if I really like him in person or is it just his profile. There is always the possibility that I am making him more perfect than he...
@theiridescentpresence I so know what you mean by always being the friend. I think that was all my highschool life. The worst part was I always watched them dating my friends instead of me. Such bullshit.
Taking a nap was great. Going back to work sucks. I really hate Allison and her stupid superior attitude. FUCK OFF!!!
In 30 minutes I am going to take a nap at work becuase I just can’t seem to function.
How can I change the damn font size. I keep trying all sorts of html and its not working why?
